2010
I had been rather looking forward to 2010 being that 2009 has been so fucking horrible but unfortunately, so far it has been just a one-two punch to the nutsack. Out of two active interview processes I lost both — in the same day. My unemployment was terminated and I’m currently paying for formula with retirement money. So of course like all 30 year-old men with no future I waited till my family went to sleep to be really, sincerely depressed, but Ren decided that shit wasn’t happening and instead preferred to scream his head off for a couple of hours. And throw up on my shirt a couple times for good measure. And so I got stupid frustrated and laid him down and he screamed, and picked him up and he screamed, but slightly less, so I alternated between standing up and holding him with slightly not-so-aggravating screams to laying him down with wake-up-the neighbor screams.
And then he went to sleep and I went to the bathroom to cry for a bit.
Only after 30 years of socialization that men aren’t supposed to cry, I appear to be physically incapable of doing it anymore. And that pisses me off more than anything — cause god damnit some times it’s necessary.
When no one else is looking of course.
So my shitty mode continued on to today and I was putting the princess in the shower halfheartedly, once again with my head in my hands. And she kept calling my name, over and over and over again. And I said “what?!” really frustrated.
And she bent over naked with her head between her legs and said “I can see my own butt!”
Bahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!
WOW.
Sorry.
Okay, back to not laughing about how ridiculous Princess is.
I’m super sorry to hear shit’s not turning out how you’ve been hoping. I’m no good at clichéd advice but try and keep your head up, something fantastic will come after all this bullshit! That’s how it always works, unfortch.
At least you have Princess to make you smile
良い時ばかりでなくうまくいっていない時も自分の気持ちを正直に書いていることは良いことだと思う。いつか振り返って読むときがきたらこの時期は人生の中で必要な時期だったとわかるのかな。子供って癒されるよね。ポジティブなパワーいっぱい持ってし。もうすぐ私も二人目生まれます！
Alyson -
No worries, I’m feeling remarkably good for the large majority of the time. It seems to hit me occasionally when I get tired and I get a lot thrown on my shoulders at once though. And like you said, the princess does a good job of keeping me in line
Utuntu -
うん、大変だけど本当に癒されるね。二人目！？ おぅ！ 楽しみだね！ いつ生まれる予定？
Buwahahahaha! Priceless man!
I hear what you’re saying though dude. As I get older I find it harder to cry, but on the other hand I seem to shit myself more often. Related?
Lorne -
Ha! Possibly — but it probably falls in the field of not-worth-considering too much I think (laugh)
my big day is 26th!!!
Utuntu -
Wow, coming right up then!
I’m sorry, man. Times are tough and it sucks for all of us. I hope things improve for you soon and I think they will as you ended this horribly depressing post with a bit of humor. That’s the right attitude!
Gooseberried -
Thanks for the well wishes. I’m doing pretty well in general to be honest — I just gotta allow myself to be horribly depressing on occasion I suppose